Thursday, September 10, 2009

Help.

{photo via Flickr}

Yes, I'm enlisting you. Why? Because I'm terribly indecisive and am currently at a cross roads. Okay, let me give you the skinny..

So here I am, not working (I usually work), and totally hitting ROCK BOTTOM with finding a job. Massage openings? Not a one. Oh you want to maybe even be a server at one of the 4billion restaurants in Provo/Orem? Wrong. Possibly even work retail again? Yeah right, check back with us in a month, maybe then. Ahh! See, there's this thing called a bad economy.. and if you don't have a job, your odds of getting one right now are like a zillion to one. Even if your resume & massaging skills KICK BUTT!
Yeah, so anyway.. here I am minding my own business in our new BYU married student ward, when BAM! "Arica, [this is my brain speaking].. you really should consider school. I mean think about it, you're ITCHING to know the in's n' outs of home design, it's been a passion of yours since you were like... oh not even kidding, 14 [yes, had plans freshman year that I totally bailed on], and doing some awesome religion & english courses could be totally good for your health" AH! This hit me like a ton of bricks. Seriously... I passed a note to Andrew telling him what I was feeling, and he seriously almost passed out. He couldn't believe it. See, I had sworn off Universityness.. that's why I bailed on interior design. I refused to take another worthless history & math class (that's how I feel about them, sorry history & math buffs). Ugh, but now my feelings are telling me to get over that stupidness. I don't know.. it's overwhelming, and I have no idea how I would even START into that sort of thing! I'd have to do online courses, or night school.. not to mention lots of bobbing and weaving & trying to get connections up the WAZOO to get into such a place like BYU. I sweat just thinking about all the hard work it would take to even GET IN. But then I have a husband who says.. oh don't worry, I'll get you in, that's not the hard part. YA RIGHT! This isn't surprising though however, coming from the boy who got a full ride to get a fine art degree all on his own as a freshman. Literally, he talked to people, wrote letters and BAM, scholarship awarded ..and then bailed because he HATES fine art. So yes, he can wheel & deal.. no doubt about it. Oh, and trust me, I'm no dummie.. I know how hard BYU courses are.. my husband is an expert at being stumped and stressed, not to mention I've heard multiple times how difficult the major is. But if I went for it, I wouldn't wuss out, it's such a love of mine that I couldn't back out. I'd take the hard with the fun. I just don't know... I just feel like I need to be learning, which is odd (I never thought I'd have the urge, minus the next option)..

So here's what is also a possibility..
I've been craving to do Aesthetic school. Yeah, may seem silly, not that cool to do with your time.. and my friends it is SOO expensive like over $10,000 expensive.. but I would LOVE to learn more about the body and how to better it! It would fill the gaps of massage so smoothly & not to mention it keeps me in an atmosphere that I love, and in less than a YEARS time! Not to mention I LOVE hands on education, seriously LOVE IT. But people, that kind of money.. wheeeeew. That's a lot of money. More than BYU money. More than swindling to get into BYU money...
I just don't know..

Both are good, no. great options. I just don't know if I can hack it! Especially while I'm not even working!! Andrew votes BYU, even says he'll do my math homework, but I don't know.. it scares me going into a world full of 18 year olds that are killer smarter than me. Me, who should technically already have GRADUATED, pressing her luck at trying to even get in. Blah. I just don't know what to do.. I just know I need to do SOMETHING! Help.. anybody... everybody.. I need to be LEARNING and doing what I love!

Ideas? Thoughts?
Please & thanks.

11 comments:

Erin and Aaron said...

school is ALWAYS a great option. you know, i think you should do it.

there is no better time. literally. it's only going to get harder as you get older.....

get it girl!

Cassie said...

i personally think your design style is ROCKIN (I LOVE your blog posts with your interior design likes), and that you'd be really good at it. But you probably won't go very far if you don't have a degree. People like you more when you have a piece of paper to back you up. I say BYU. But that's just me...

Mindy Gledhill said...

Sorry to disagree with Cassie, but there are plenty of people who succeed without an official degree. Not that school is a bad idea (I am currently a student). Sometimes I think people make the mistake of going to school, thinking it will solve all their problems, when traditional school isn't always for everyone. Arica, I have some ideas. Come upstairs and we'll talk. Thanks again for the cookies!

Francesca said...

Wow, this is tough. I think it really comes down to which you would rather do in the long run. Which is the greater passion? I'm assuming interior design, which means "universityness" now but hands-on fun later! Plus, as Erin noted, it's best to go to school now instead of when you're older. And the BYU experience is amazing. And no one really cares about your age, so don't worry!

Lacey said...

I totally think you should go for any type of schooling. My guess would be that you would enjoy BYU interior design, since you said its been a passion of yours since 14! It would be such a great experience! Especially since its impossible to find jobs at this time, I think its a great time to invest in your education. I admit, I am totally biased in my opinion--I have always been for extra schooling (I'm in the middle of applying to grad school), but I think you would get in and do great at something you're so passionate about!
I know what you mean about the math and history classes though--I hate them!! I actually did better in my high level major courses than in those lame classes!!

Good luck with your decision!
Pray about it, and I'm sure you'll know what the best thing to do is!

Jason and Kelly said...

You'll never regret getting more education... whether you use it to be something out in the career world or just to be a mom. That said... BYu doesnt have a major in interior design anymore.. you have to go to IDaho for that. Good luck at making a desicions! You'll do well no matter what you end up deciding.

Arica said...

Thanks everyone.. but HOW do i do it!? and Kelly, as sad as that news is.. the good news is that the Home & Family Living program offers LOTS of I.D. courses.

Ashley Smith said...

don't let the age thing be a deterrant...my old roommate brittany did her freshman year, took about 4 years off, then returned to finish school. plus look at all the rm's (like jeremy) who didn't do any school pre-missions and start at zero at 21+. nobody even knows or cares. just start taking some independent study classes...so easy. and don't feel like it's too early to set up an appointment with admissions or a counselor at BYU...unlike here at state schools they'll actually talk to you before you're admitted. i would keep doing school if we were still in utah. i love learning (not tests, but learning haha).

Ashley & Matthew Lisonbee said...

I always think it is a good thing to continue learning, in fact that was last months VT message. I think with your knack and talent for Int Design I would go for that. I am also sorry I have not called you this week, not feeling the best. You know you are always welcome to come over and veg anytime:) Luv you.
Ashley

Joanna said...

I don't want to tell you which to choose, but I just want you to know that you can do whatever you choose. And don't even say you are old! Me, with 3 kids @ age 28 am finally finishing up my bachelor degree.
Good luck! You can do it!

Anonymous said...

Hey Arica, I'm currently majoring in interior design at BYU-I and it's pretty tough. Also I'm pretty sure BYU dropped that major like 6 years ago. As far as getting a job whithout a degree many states require that you be licensed which includes a degree and at least 2 years experience before taking this two day test dealing with codes and minimum building standards.