Friday, July 3, 2009

Coulda, Woulda, Shoulda..

Do you ever leave a conversation wishing things went differently? Or, you feel like nothing you could have said would have been right? Or, that there's really no reason for you to still be dwelling on the situation because you know that the other parties are not even thinking about what happened, and probably never will. That basically your brain is skipping and you just have to press 'next track' in order for you to let it go.
I think this all is happening because, believe it or not, I've been really trying to take some personal strides lately and treat people very differently. It's actually a very conscious decision that requires a lot of effort on my part, which leads me to dwell on what happened later. Analyzing and wondering, did I handle it right? Which can be a good and a bad thing. Good, if the other person validates your efforts. Bad, if you feel like the person could have cared less about how you handle things. Then you end up lamenting for no reason. Am I making any sense? If not, sorry.. I just felt like I needed an outlet, and this offers me the best thing next to my husband. Who is heaven sent, and has assured me that I'm doing a good job, and that I'm worrying about things that shouldn't even matter. Oh man, sometimes I wish I wasn't a girl and didn't naturally over think everything. I just need to keep in mind that different situations need to be handled differently.
As my dad would say.. "you're should'ing all over yourself"
Forgive the jumbled thoughts.. the end.

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Erin and Aaron said...

i know what you mean. I'm an overanalyizer to the MAX and I drive myself crazy sometimes.

I like the cd analogy. good one.

you ARE doing great air! i didn't even think you needed to make improvements, but GOOD FOR YOu!

Francesca said...

If it makes you feel better, your post made sense!